I’m in the need of writing. Right now my mind needs it. I need to pour my heart out cause right know I don’t know how the hell to stop crying and shaking.
Twoyears into the relationship I wished for. Twoyears into loving like I never loved before. Two years into giving out my heart to her. Why do I miss you more than you miss me? Why do I feel like we are falling apart. My heart can’t take this…
So, let me explain some things first:
I was living with her for a couple of months but her family had some problems on the house so we recently moved to my mom’s house until we find an apartment.
Right now she has a full time job and I have a part time job.
She works on the day and I work on the night so we barely have time together.
So that gets me to where we are right now… I miss her like hell, but the little time we have she wants to sleep because she has to get early for work. I get that. I totally do but is it too hard to give me 30 minutes of your time? I miss you baby. I miss you like hell. I only see you sleeping, I barely can tell you how my shift went or ask how yours went, how are you feeling? I miss you, do you miss me ? Do you miss me while you are at work? Cause I can’t stop thinking about you. I still feel the same love as I did in the beginning. Why I feel you so far away ? We live together but it feels like you are miles away. Can you tell me what’s happening?
It’s almost a year that I’m with the most amazing girl !
I know that I’m not writing anymore but I felt like it was time to get back to writing cause it’s one of my passions and it really relaxes me. To my old readers, I apologize. And my oh my… it really feels GOOD to be writing again ! So let’s get started…
My anniversary is coming… I really can’t believe it ! When I started going out with her, I used to spend a lots of time on my computer writing about her and daydreaming about her and right know that it’s almost a year that I’ve been with her… I don’t regret anything !I’m still truly, deeply in love and I believe she’s too ! Like I’ve I said before, we are like every couple, we have our ups and downs but we hang on to each other.
A lot have happened:
Now my mom really likes her. On Christmas Vacation, my mom agreed for me to stay at her house for almost 2 weeks and then my mom let her to stay at my house. So it’s been pretty great with that.
My brother loves her, well they love each other, they spend HOURS playing video games together. I have to admit that sometimes I get jealous cause they ignore me, but I still love them.
Her dad knows that we are together but he doesn’t like to talk about it, but the REAL PROBLEM is her grandmother from her dad’s side. I don’t really know her and I already can’t stand her. Yesterday she told her that she wanted to follow her to know where I live. Let me tell you some things about her: She’s very religious, she pretends that she can “change” my girlfriend and ruin our relationship. She hates me.
But despite all the problems, I’m extremely happy with my girlfriend and our relationship. Not that I’m a “love expert” but if one thing that I have learn to have a stable relationship is to COMMUNICATE. When there’s issues, you just have to talk about it calmly.
Oh I almost forgot to say that my anniversary is on Valentine’s Day and I want to do something really special but guess what… I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I have brainstorming but nothing convinces me.
PS: You don’t know the satisfactions that I really feel of writing again. I had done a lots of drafts but I never wanted to post and I don’t know why.
So don’t forget to be true to yourself. Believe in yourself. Believe in love. And if you’re from the LGBT community, don’t give up and at the end you’ll see it was all worth it ♥
Oh wow … long time no see (or write/read) ! Well, people remember that I got a new girlfriend (I talked about her on my last post)? Then let me tell you that we have been together for six months (7 soon) now. She and my mom already met, we have had many obstacle but we still together, we went to camping for our six months celebration (a small honeymoon).
But now, I don’t know what else think, do, or say !!! Let me explain…
Like a month ago I stayed at her house for a couple of days because my mom had a vacation trip so we decided that I could stayed at my girlfriend’s house cause I would be alone at my house, then a few weeks ago we went camping together. But now she wants me to stay at home more often. But now she wants me to stay at her house more often, but the problem is… MY MOM. You know the stupid rule your parents say when you reach 18+ and still live with them “MY HOUSE, MY RULES”. Well my mom has that rule and it drives me crazy, and why we don’t move out together, you ask? Well, we both lost our jobs and we can’t afford anything. So back to parents… So my mom always comes with that stupid rule, so I have to say no to my girlfriend every time she ask me to stay and she gets very pissed off. And last week we had a huge fight because of that, so I had to talk to my mom but today when I called my mom to inform her that I would be stay at my girlfriend’s house, she got very mad and said that she wanted to talk to my girlfriend so I passed the phone to her and my mom said exactly the same thing to her, and I quote “As long as she lives at my house she has to follow my rules” So when she hanged out the phone, my girlfriend all of the sudden looked at me so pissed.
So the big question is “WHERE THE F%#k DID I WENT WRONG?” I did what she asked me to, I told my mom I was staying with her. And after all, guess what? MY MOM SAID YES!! So should’t we be making out and not being sitting on the bed with long faces?
I’m sorry folks, for my vocabulary but I’m extremely mad right now, why? You asked, well let me tell you…
As you know I have an amazing girlfriend but lately it’s been so hard to see each other 😥 The colleges in here doesn’t have dormitories so you have to stay with your parents or find a job and rent a house or buy a house or stay with other relatives or/and friends. So I live with my mom and my girlfriend lives with her mom. Her mom is really cool with our relationship, and I have a great relationship with her, she even defends me if my girlfriend and I fight. Everything’s looks great, right? But the problem is my mom !
When I first came out to my mom she was cool about cause she saw it coming, and she told me that she was going to support me no matter what, well that was bullshit, cause right now she is taking care of ruin our relationship. She doesn’t want me to go out with her, when we are on the webcam she gives me a ton of chores, when I spend more time in college she calls me telling (screaming) me that “I know you are with her, COME HOME RIGHT NOW” She even put me a curfew, I have to be home at 10 pm. Me, a college girl, is grounded and with curfew. And she keeps telling me “My house, my rules” so I have to live with this or move away, but I can’t move out yet. So I’m stuck here for a while with this dumb rules. My mom and I used to have a great relationship but since I am dating a girl things has changed, now I am in a living hell.
Well, when I’m with my girlfriend I feel so happy but when I have to go home I get sad. Right now, my girlfriend is getting frustrated with all this shit and I don’t want her to give up … I was afraid of this … it was too good to be truth … and now I see the reality. I ain’t giving up, she has everything I was looking for, so no I’m not letting her go. I don’t believe in that bullshit “If you love something let it go …”! The day she asked me to be her girlfriend, I promised her that I’m never gonna give up no matter what so I’m gonna do that I’m gonna keep fighting cause the thing we have it’s very special !
It is very difficult to be different in a world where people is used to live in monotony.
We must understand that we are two totally different generations. When the current generation replaces the previous, things will be different, this is a complete change and some people do not accept that. Each generation has the same problem, so why do not we open our minds?
Every loving couple should have the right to be happy anywhere in the world. It’s sad to see people asking for peace when they judge the happiness of others.
Dear love …
Since I met you my life changed for good. I never been this happy before. This feels like a dream, I can’t believe that you are mine and I am yours. I am having the time of my life with you. I’ll do anything for you, I’ll fight for our love and that is a promise. I am going to be there always for you. When you get sick I feel like half of me is damaged. When we hold hands I feel like nothing can ever happened to me. When we kiss I feel like the rest of the world stops. When we aren’t together I feel empty. I want to see the world with you. I don’t want to let you go. I want you in my life forever. In other words … You are my everything.